I was shocked to find out how mean I was being to myself. I was constantly criticizing myself about anything I could think of. I would scold myself for not doing enough tasks of my todolist knowing fullwell it was way to much for one day. And when I did take some time out to relax then either during or afterwards I would call myself lazy and feel guilty for having taken some time for myself. I realized last week when I was dressing my babygirl and I made a small mistake I told her 'Your mommy is so stupid sometimes'... I do not want to learn this kind of selfdestructive behavior to her(!). And I do not want to be mean to myself anymore. I actually wrote myself a letter the other day apologizing for all the (mental) self abuse and promising to be my own best friend again. I really felt like I connected to a part of me I guess I had stuffed away somewhere along the way. Now I have to keep working on being nice to myself. I still catch myself thinking thoughts like that but then I stop take a breath and (kindly) correct myself I already feel so much more relaxed and there's much more peace in my head. I love it. I love the SEP so far, it's a great help to me! I do it at my own pace. Sometimes I'll do 1,5 days in one go and then I might skip a day when I'm busy with... well life I do try to journal at least a bit everyday and read one succes story or a few forum posts. That really helps me to stay on point.