Why are symptoms so much worse?

[Diana-M]

I get headaches, and there's me in ending my life pain like switching the lights off for good because I can't stand it for 1 more day and still getting through work

Dee, I hope things get better for you! Soon! That sounds so hard.

 

[JohnDellatto]

Everything @Dee.1983 said! Thank you @JohnDellatto for being here for us. It helps so much.

That's good to hear. I wanted to write it.

 

[Dee.1983]

Dee,
It is so frustrating to hear about those people! And it sets us all up to want that. But the honest truth is almost all those people get TMS again. True! Just stick around on the forum and you’ll see how many people are back saying, “I got all better and now it’s back and it’s really bad.”

When I first discovered Sarno in 2017, I was having a really bad TMS episode where my hands were both numb. I was freaking out and I was lucky enough to discover Sarno. I read his book The Divided Mind— I did all the stuff he said— and a few months later my TMS went away.

Five or so years later it came back— and then it got worse. During that time I had about eight hard things going on in my life. And, I still hadn’t learned so many things. I hadn’t explored my past enough. I hadn’t learned enough about my personality traits that cause TMS. I was flying blind.

Am I frustrated that I don’t have this TMS gone yet? At first I was, but now I’m not anymore— because I consider this the cleanup of all cleanups.

I’m gonna get this good! Will it come up again? Probably—because TMS seems to pop up again for people like me. But if it does, I’ll be able to recognize what’s going on. I’ll be able to spot what triggered it. I’ll get rid of it faster. And maybe it will never come again!

I’ve had TMS on and off my whole life and I’m 66. But now things are different. As far as I’m concerned, the rest of my life is going to be amazing. It already is so much better because of the things I’ve learned about myself.

It will only keep you stuck if you resent how long it’s taking. If you really want to get on the right path: try to live and be happy now. I know this sounds really frustrating and annoying.

I don’t like to talk about symptoms— I think it makes things worse. But I’ll just tell you so you can see how far I’ve come to be happy. Right now, I can’t walk very fast using a walker. If I stand more than 10 minutes, I’m in massive pain. I can’t balance enough to pick up something off the floor. My hands are cramped and I can’t use my left hand very well. But I’m happy now! How in the world did this happen? I think it’s because I finally I know I will get better— and I’m using my patience. It’s just a matter of time. Even if it takes a while, I’m changing so much month by month that it’s even worth it.

I hope any of that can help you! Hang in there! Keep doing the work. Stick with the forum.

Thank you Diana I can feel your kindness through your words, it truly feels like people in this forum want others to heal. Its incredible that you have found happiness amongst your struggles and it is motivating to hear. I plan on doing the work and I have a few workshops booked that aren't directly linked to TMS but that I am hoping will help me connect to underlying emotions and possibly explore some aspects of myself / my past that I can not see. I do believe there is a way of this darkness.

 

[Dee.1983]

Dee, I hope things get better for you! Soon! That sounds so hard.

Thank you, I also hope you continue to improve but it sounds like you know you will.

 

[Dee.1983]

Okay, @Dee.1983 - here is where I warn people about another condition that sometimes goes with TMS - I call it Yes, But... Syndrome. YBS. This is a self-defeating behavior of your TMS brain that you want to nip in the bud ASAP.
It's not just self-defeating, but every variation of it ("it's just that..." , "if only...") is a subtle (and oh-so polite) rejection of the response you've just received. I know you absolutely don't want to be doing that.

You totally recognize that "my subconscious is struggling with the message" is your freaked-out TMS mechanism trying to get you to give up, right? You also want to be mindful of the subtle little tricky negative messages as well, and turn them around into something constructive and proactive to move forward rather than back.

Also, a bad day is a good reason to assume that tomorrow can be better.

Also! Self pressure leads to self judgement which leads to repression and symptoms. Take the pressure off.

Remember, this is not you, it's your brain on TMS.

I love your direct non bullshit approach - I mean that genuinely, that's why I look forward to your responses - but I can see telling myself that my subconscious can't get the message is negative and preventing it from getting the message.. ok I need to reframe this in a way that is positive and believable. Of course it will get the message if I keep at it, keep telling it and have some patience and maybe a little love towards it, I can do that.

 

[Diana-M]

@Dee.1983
There’s a great success story of a young woman who got healed from TMS headaches in Nicole Sach’s first book, The Meaning of Truth. It’s in chapter 8. If you haven’t read that book, it’s a good one. Sometimes it is helpful to cling to some good success stories. I know that’s helped me.

 

[Dee.1983]

@Dee.1983
There’s a great success story of a young woman who got healed from TMS headaches in Nicole Sach’s first book, The Meaning of Truth. It’s in chapter 8. If you haven’t read that book, it’s a good one. Sometimes it is helpful to cling to some good success stories. I know that’s helped me.

Thanks Diana - I have her second book but haven't read it yet - I will also get her first book - I feel I need to consume as much TMS information as possible at present although currently really enjoying Lorimer Moseley on you tube as suggested by @JohnDellatto

 

[JanAtheCPA]

I feel I need to consume as much TMS information as possible

No pressure?