I've been in especially terrible pain for 2 weeks, much worse than the previous 15 months. Trouble sleeping, multiple urgent care visits, and missed work. I feel like the TMS is fighting me especially hard, but that I'm losing the battle. My fear is the biggest obstacle for me. I am supposed to take a vacation on Sunday which involves a couple hour plane flight. I've been very fearful, contemplating whether I can handle the preparation, car ride, LAX lines, and the plane ride. I keep going back and forth about whether I should go. I don't want to be a burden on my family if the pain I'm feeling now continues on vacation. I feel strongly that I have TMS, but I feel like I can't stand up to this increased pain. I keep pleading for the old pain to come back (how crazy does that sound?!), because at least I could manage that. Today's SEP reading was exactly what I needed, especially the success story. How do you stand up to the pain when it literally keeps you off your feet?