When I look back at advice and support I've given to others along the way, I have to laugh a little. I am so bad at following my own advice! Here's my problem. I am not new to TMS, I have had so many successes, and still struggle so acutely with FEAR. My current situation reveals to me the extent to which I still battle it. My first TMS symptom was back pain. While I consider it more or less "cured", I still fear certain activity and movement, a lot, especially lifting heavy things....although I pick up and carry two year olds (twins) all day long. Over the weekend, I helped with a garage sale and my friend asked me to help her move a heavy sofa a few inches out of the way. With a moment of hesitation, and realizing that she had just carried it from the basement (and is smaller than me and not exactly a bodybuilder!) with her husband, I helped her push it back. I could have congratulated myself for facing this demon, but instead my brain has been condemning me for it every since. I have had some pretty bad back pain and soreness, starting after that activity(though in reality, it didn't feel that difficult, or hurt, while I was doing it). I hear things like, "Well, that was stupid. Why did you think that was a good idea? Do you really thing you were ready for that?" and "Well, maybe you weren't injured before that, but you are now! Those 'strong and healthy' mantras don't apply anymore, 'cuz you messed yourself up!" (Does anyone else have thoughts like this? I feel so alone). I think if I had chosen to do this with a lot of planning, I'd have less fear, but because it was a 'surprise situation', my brain is beating up on me. I am a PT by training, so unfortunately I still have a lot of lingering "bodies are fragile" mentality. So I guess I just need some serious reassurance and TLC I'm scared, so sick and tired of being scared, and need some help this time. Also, any advice on overcoming these triggering activities would be so helpful. Thanks in advance.