What's most helpful for me is the community. I don't know where I'd be without all these TMS survivors, urging me on, making me feel like I am not alone and that I won't begin and die here. Thank you to those who respond. Day 15 was great. Cognitive soothing has been such a help- I regularly give myself hugs which I have discovered has dramatically reduced the constant panic in my brain and today's idea, to allow myself to celebrate accomplishment is lifechanging. I don't do that- I beat myself up about everything done wrong and hardly take time to celebrate small wins. I love this idea. This means stopping to congratulate myself and tell myself that I'm proud of myself and actually make a moment out of it. Sometimes I have wondered how to make the switch from despair into empowerment, and this simple exercise is helpful. Until tomorrow.