Just finding this forum and the number of people who had had experience with TMS. That helped me so much, I can't thank all the kind people here enough. For taking the time and replying to my posts or giving advice. The SEP program offered a way of journaling that includes dialoguing, that allowed me to at least have an imaginary conversation with people and tell them exactly what I think in a way that wouldn't be accepted socially and by this I don't mean coursing or mean language. I mean speaking to clients honestly, telling my boss the opinion I had to repress, telling one of my closest friends that I feel like I have changed too much to be the same friend from always as expected. And that I'm bored.