I'd certainly say anger at my lost childhood. Anger towards my abusers, and towards the fact that they run scott free after causing so much harm to me. Fear is the second most prevalent thought. Most of it is fear around these people who hurt me as a child. Even though I am physically away from them, these people make me afraid. Anxiety comes next. There is anxiety for the future. Anxiety of my pain; can I enjoy my life again, can I be there for my child when she needs me, will I be able to help her with her homework? There is also some guilt about not doing enough for my mother, who continues to live under abuse. I started working with a psychologist this week, and she proclaimed that my mental state is complex. She and I will have to work hard to resolve it.