Due to severe TMS I have moved back home with my mother. Our relationship has always been a bit strained, so it is an awful thing in itself to have moved back at age 27 but I no longer could hold a job due to pain and fatigue , so I had to. Now, don't get me wrong, I am very happy that she has taken me in, she has supported me financially tremendously all my life until I was independent and now when I had loads of medical bills (that found nothing, but still very costly). And she is doing her best I suppose, but..she is just unable to show any love during this time, which is well frankly hellish for me, TMS has robbed everything from me and I feel like I do deserve some love and support and encouragement from someone else other than me. So, I thought I can deal with it, I can accept that she is the way she is. But I really don't think I really can handle it anymore. All these months when she was unsupportive, was freaking out for how long I was sick, giving unasked advice, pointing out my flaws and accusing me of being overly emotional and always stressing how hard my TMS is for HER, I first reacted badly, we got in a fight and then somehow I always end up feeling like the crazy person and am apologizing and consoling her.. This scenario has happened multiple times. I have actually discussed with her that this is unhelpful and have literally told her what to say when Im having a bad flare up, but she never does, she always is her same self. And I know she will never change, yet I still feel the need to tell her things, to seek support from her.. And I sometimes feel true anger and hate at her that she never was there for me when I was a child and shes not here for me when Im in so much pain. So much rage, Ive written about it felt it, but its hard to let go because she does it over and over again. So Im thinking now, perhaps, I should just stop trying, kinda cut her off, as much as it is possible living in the same house? But then I feel guilty.. Anybody with similar experiences?