Some people have trouble with journaling. It's understandable since it involves some deep soul-searching to discover what is troubling us. Take it a little at a time. It's really an essential part 0f healing. Like spinach and kale, they may not taste like chocolate, but they're very healthy foods.
Can you maybe just make a list of what troubles you? Present and past, or worry about the future? Then give some thought to each thing on your list.
It's like giving yourself "tough love."
You're "resilient." You can do this.