Well on day 16 I am supposed to post about whether or not I have told anyone about the condition and TMS. Of course! I'm not ashamed of it. I told my mom, hoping I could spark some sort of interest in her because I see many TMS symptoms in her and I want her to want help like I do. I have also told my naturopath and my best friend. They are all really supportive. I have a few really really solid relationships in my life and I am SO grateful. Now, in more interesting news... Today has been a very enlightening day. I am reading "Waking the Tiger..." by Peter Levine and it is really, really helpful and I have no doubt that I am going to get a lot of information from the book. In fact, as I was reading there was a time when I sat the book down because I was feeling anxious. I closed my eyes and watched the pain move around my body. It started in my stomach and I addressed it, then it moved to my head and I addressed it, then to my sinuses, then to my stomach, then my chest, then I felt the fatigue. It was fascinating to watch this cycle! It happened several times and I just kept watching and addressing. I have also been watching "You Can Heal Your Life" by Louise Hay and I have learned so much! I just got the audio book so I'm going to listen ASAP. But it was because of the interview with Mona Lisa Schultz that I began exploring my symptoms as intuition and in relation to my Chakras. I don't know that I completely believe in the Chakra system but I do believe that things like that can give clues to how things "really" are. I am trying to figure out the symptoms as symbols. For example; one symptom of IBS is gas and that produces pressure. What is pressure? I think of it as conflict. So what if the gas is indicative of conflict? What is conflicting about my emotions? What is creating internal pressure? I am constantly second guessing myself. I also have a lot of all or nothing, black and white thinking. I haven't quite figured this out, but maybe someone has an insight into it... I also realized several things about myself today. My identification of feelings, sensations, emotions, etc... is becoming more more fine-tuned. And, I still think a lot, but now it's less intellectual and more feeling, which I believe is beneficial. Such a good day.