Felt recently like I've made a lot of progress on many fronts and overall for about 2 days the pain was less severe when it occurred (which still is daily) and I've had these pain free moments where I feel light, and relaxed and my back and leg have released. I am trying to look at this as a sign of more good things to come, but I feel like the past 2 days I went backwards in terms of pain and I also think the TMS is showing up in the form of unexplainable fatigue and a strange sense of feeling hungry all the time, despite eating fine (eating issues, comfort eating etc never a problem for me so not concerned just annoyed) and showing up as mild TMJ too. I know it's TMS moving around / continued extinction bursts I guess... But I'm almost frustrated I had the taste of "being healed" because it's so hard to pick myself back up and push through and do what I guess led to this feeling of progress and lightness and no pain. I got a bit of a break from the hard work, and looking back on it I marvel at how I did all that hard work and feel like I don't have it in me again.... though there really is no choice! Am I just whining here? I could look at this and say, wow, look how great you felt as a result of tolerating the pain, functioning, working on meditation, repeating the right things to myself, looking at what is making me angry etc... I guess I jumped the gun and said wow, I feel cured, its not going to come back [at least this soon]! I realize my idea of progress is still too linked to how much pain I am in. But, for all we talk about outcome independence, deep down don't we all just want to not have pain ? If I could be someone who didn't care that I was in pain, that would be great, but can anyone truly say that? There are some experiences that are just too unpleasant to say yay, go me, this is progress... For example, I recently sat for a long car ride which was pretty lousy. Its a success because I didn't avoid going to the destination, and was able to what I wanted to do there, but indeed, I dont want to make any plans that include more car rides! I am thankful that the pain is not always that severe, but still... The TMS still has a hold on me... I've been writing how its been standing that's the problem, well, TMS made sure sitting for a car ride would be... (or I let it I guess...) Thanks all, as always, for listening. Posting really helps.