So my TMS is kind of severe, I feel like. I have all over body pain when flaring, I have dizziness a lot. I had to quit my job at a hospital a year ago (I thought it was just for couple months, but its been a year now, which seems like a bad dream to me). It often renders me completely useless and broken, not only cant I work, but I cant enjoy much, cant watch TV or read a book if I have severe dizziness etc. Can't walk a lot, because it causes foot pain. So, I feel like I deserve sympathy and support from others. And it angers me when some friends just dont get that I am not well enough to party or whatever. I know it's not conducive to TMS recovery and I am trying to work on it, but I cant help feeling it. And what I've noticed is, that if I am in middle of a severe flare up, if I talk to a friend about it, then pain sometimes lets go a bit. And yes, I see that this might be my brains ploy to get me the support and sympathy I didn't get in past, because my mom never was a huger and praiser and then later in life I always assumed this strong independent woman's role and I rarely asked for help, just offered loads of it to others and really loved being that way. And I suppose that my inner child was done with that and knew that the only way to get me in the position where it will get support is a state of physical illness that I have no control over (opposed to emotional issues, that I felt like I should control...) Yet, I have known this for a while and it doesnt back off. Anyone with similar experience? I feel like I'm playing the victim, but then I really do feel like that, if I am being completely honest with myself.