Hello, I started the educational programme today. I watched the 20/20 video and it made me both happy and nervous. The brother who is a Dr and has back pain argues rationality - I would prefer that. His brother, a journalist is willing to work through the programme and in doing so felt better. Thats what I want. I realise that the mind body link is real. I want to get well and I will give this a try even though it makes me a little nervous. I want to do the work and I do not need to get it all done in day one (but that would be very cool). I know I have some deep stuff buried and it comes out in my back. I know I do not like anger. I spoke to a Counsellor friend the other day about my buried anger and she said it may turn into grief and then let yourself cry. I guess I am scared of being overwhelmed by grief, but know ultimately I do not need to be. I am also bothered about being seen to be self indulgent. My back has caused me a tremendous amount of pain in the last year. Over the years it seems to kick in when I am stressed or sad. I do not really have anything to be stressed about. My sister died two years ago and I am coming to terms with that. But there is other stuff I need to work through. Not sure how to do it yet.