I feel like I have been making good progress. I am slowly getting through this educational program and new concepts and ideas presented here are helping me stay positive and optimistic that I can get better. I have a lot less pain and anxiety. Probably 75%. Which to me is a miracle! It's that last 25% that's tricky. These particular pains have been around for so long - (shoulder arms and hands). I'm having a hard time letting them go. And I'm not able to connect my emotions to the pain. I know that it comes about when I'm working - either joyfully or stressfully. When I am designing, illustrating or painting I am 100% in the moment and working on that task at hand. But I think my mind perceives this intensity as stress. Maybe I feel pressure and internal expectations that have been there for so long that I can't even see them as a reason for the pain? There's clearly more to uncover there. On another note, I found myself pretty stressed last Friday preparing for my husbands surprise birthday. I had a few tinges of tightness in my neck and I stopped what I was doing to connect with my feelings. I calmed down and felt better. BUT, the next morning as I started tasking away on a myriad of house move projects, my left inner ankle started to acutely hurt. Within a few hours, It hurt to pressure on it. Stairs were very painful. I didn't fall or hurt the ankle in any way. I was sure it was TMS, so I just kept doing what I was doing. I worked through the day with this painful ankle- which only seemed to hurt when I walked on it. Sunday when I woke up and started off the day, it still hurt. The pain escalated to a point where each step I took was excruciating. Finally, I said to myself "Enough!" and allowed myself to feel very frustrated, annoyed and disorganized about everything I was trying to achieve that day. I knew I was trying to do too much and I knew I was worried about how to get everything done. I was full of pressure and stress. This A-ha! happened in my backyard when I was taking out trash. When I walked up the back steps upon my return from the alley. The ankle pain was gone. I sat at my desk and made a list of what I though was reasonable to do that day and took the rest of the tasks off my plate. Wow.