Stella
Well known member
I have had so many positive experience the last few days. With my pain I feel like a pinball machine. I light up one place then it moves to another place. Sometimes it is in the bottom of my foot, then my butt, then my left knee, then my abdomen. It is exciting and amazing. Plus the pain is declining.
But I have more amazing stuff. I had briefly mentioned to parents a month or so ago that I had found out a lot of my pain was related to never grieving for my baby brother after he died. My Mother and I looked at pictures that had been hidden away for years.
So Thursday morning my Dad calls saying my Mother was sick all night. I asked to speak to her. She said she threw-up all night long. Her leg and foot cramps were horrible. She had tingling all over her body. I intermediately felt guilty and very responsible because I had brought up the death of my baby brother. That day was the date of his birthday.!!!!!! I told my Mother I felt so bad about bringing it up Blah, Blah, blah.
I hung up thinking I am not going to blame myself and I am going to see this as a positive sign. I am not responsible for how they feel. I went to their apartment, talked with them, and told my Mother all her symptoms were related to his death. I told her she was absolutely fine.
And I was TERRIFIC! I feel like I have turned a corner. I still feel like a pinball machines but the lights are now on low..... Yeah.
I started reading Dr. David Clarke's book "They can't find anything wrong." It is terrific and I think will be very helpful. I had to drop a line and let you know. Sandy
But I have more amazing stuff. I had briefly mentioned to parents a month or so ago that I had found out a lot of my pain was related to never grieving for my baby brother after he died. My Mother and I looked at pictures that had been hidden away for years.
So Thursday morning my Dad calls saying my Mother was sick all night. I asked to speak to her. She said she threw-up all night long. Her leg and foot cramps were horrible. She had tingling all over her body. I intermediately felt guilty and very responsible because I had brought up the death of my baby brother. That day was the date of his birthday.!!!!!! I told my Mother I felt so bad about bringing it up Blah, Blah, blah.
I hung up thinking I am not going to blame myself and I am going to see this as a positive sign. I am not responsible for how they feel. I went to their apartment, talked with them, and told my Mother all her symptoms were related to his death. I told her she was absolutely fine.
And I was TERRIFIC! I feel like I have turned a corner. I still feel like a pinball machines but the lights are now on low..... Yeah.
I started reading Dr. David Clarke's book "They can't find anything wrong." It is terrific and I think will be very helpful. I had to drop a line and let you know. Sandy
