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Upper back pain anyone?

Discussion in 'Support Subforum' started by zaria7, May 29, 2020.

  1. zaria7

    zaria7 New Member

    Hi, I haven't posted here for a few years. Happily I resolved some pain I was suffering from in 2016 by taking my focus away from the pain, believing it was TMS and primarily anxiety caused and just getting on with life. It took some weeks to stop, but it did go. That was just one example of a litany of disorders I've had over the years that have been unexplained by the mainstream medical model.

    I'll give you the long version, apologies if this goes on a bit.

    I'm an anxious person, always have been since childhood. My childhood was happy, apart from a completely absent father and the untimely death of my uncle ( only 22) in an accident when I was 5 years old. I grew up living with my mother and grandparents (my uncle was their son and so I had a lot of grief surrounding me for a time). I'm an only child.
    I had severe anorexia as a teen which I recovered from but took some years . In my 20's (40's now) I had a duodenal ulcer that was treated with the usual regimen of protein pump inhibitors, which didn't really help, but it eventually just got better.
    I had unexplained tingling and numbness in my hands and feet for months in 2011 that was never explained, but dissapated after a clean MRI. Had interstitial cystitis for months a year later, which also seemed to just stop some time after a clear bladder ultrasound. I had thoracic back pain which resolved in a couple of weeks about 6 years ago after reading Healing Back Pain. I've also had burning eye symptoms that went on for a couple of months and then just resolved, and some facial pain after a dental treatment that also went away.

    Basically I've had a lot of medical things that have just disappeared without a trace, often after a medical test has ruled out anything serious. It's all clearly been TMS.

    I'm a perfectionist. I'm quite hard on myself and I'm a little obsessive and I suppose I can be a touch controlling. I am people pleaser and bacially I'm a classic TMS'er.

    Now, for the last few weeks I've been suffering from increasing and really debilitating upper back, trapezius area pain. It's sometimes on the right of my spine. Sometimes left. Seems to move about a bit. It goes up my neck to my head at times. Other times feels like burning shoulders. Sometimes is a little further down and feels like the middle of my upper thoracic spine. I can't get comfortable really anywhere, it's sometimes back in bed, sometimes not so painful. It doesn't seem to matter what I do. I have a full range of movement and no restrictions on what I do, but it hurts and it's getting me down. My GP prescribed Naproxen which I haven't taken due to knowing it will do a number on my stomach. Have used Voltarol gel to no avail, done exercises, got my husband to massage the area. No improvement. Arguably worse.

    So.....I feel this is TMS. I've been journaling, watching Dan Buglio's videos and generally just trying to think TMS. No improvement yet, in fact it feels to be worse. Think I'm just looking for some encouragement really.

    Thank you.
  2. TG957

    TG957 Beloved Grand Eagle

    What you are describing sounds like a clear case of TMS. Increase in pain is not uncommon. It is called extinction burst. It is temporary and often follows the first short period of improvement. If you continue with your TMS practice (whatever route you started on), it should eventually go away.
  3. eskimoeskimo

    eskimoeskimo Well known member

    I have upper back pain which, from your description, is a lot like yours. No movement restrictions, never excruciating, but always uncomfortable. Sometimes very uncomfortable. Right in the middle of the upper thoracic, though more so on the left side of the spine. This used to be my "primary" pain issue and fixation, but for some years now it's been my neck. My fixation on the upper back subsided as I became more anxious about my neck and that took over. I'm sorry I don't have any great recommendations for you, as I'm still struggling and haven't made progress. But letting you know that you are not alone.
  4. jula

    jula New Member

    I have upper back pain (was of course told it’s because of scoliosis) but I have just started the program. I think the location of the pain in the spine doesn’t really matter, I will treat it as TMS. This is not my main symptom so I don’t really obsess about it.
  5. zaria7

    zaria7 New Member

    Hi Robert, thanks for replying. It was almost a year ago that I wrote about my pain, and I’m happy to say that I’m entirely free of the upper back pain now. It was TMS. Took about 4 months for it to go. Since then I have had very low back, coccyx pain which I’m still working on, but is 90% better. Again, TMS.
    I find that as soon as I get rid of one thing, that another can pop up. That’s called the symptom imperative, and leads me to believe that whilst I know it’s TMS, that I’ve not quite gotten to the bottom of my emotional causes. I’m assuming it would stop popping up elsewhere if I had completely cracked it, but I can’t quite seem to shake TMS in one form or another. At least the fact that it moves around does reaffirm that it’s TMS and not structural and is emotional and neuroplastic in origin.

    Wishing you well in healing. Loads of resources online.

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