My pain is still much much better (down 70-90% depending on emotional state). My list of past events to process through journaling has grown to 21 and I have crossed off 3. My wife says I´m already better at communicating my feelings and state during the week. I have fear for some of the items to journal about. They started to come into my mind during the days. That pissed me off so I just said fuck it and took on the worst one two days ago. Went well, but maybe have to re-visit later, not sure. I heard something in a recording about that it´s not enough to just feel the anger/sadness - that we have to process it into something else also. Like into guilt or similar and then into compassion for oneself. This to rewire the neural pathway. I´m trying to incorporate this into my thinking in Journaling etc. So far I´m using the approach to accept what I felt, and tell myself its OK and human. Even if the feeling seems weird from outside. It´s still me and I´m stuck with me - embrace yourself and have compassion. Having a feeling and thought is not the same as acting on it. Let´s see how this develops.