Hi folks, here's my update. Not surprisingly, I've been following the programme to the letter. Haven't missed a day, a reading, a video etc. But that's me. I following instructions well. So I was surprised and pleased when I had a day off.... haha day 7 I think it was. Don't be TMSd today. That was harder than any other day. Not focusing on it. I have to say that I find the journaling a difficult and emotional task. I'm used to writing, it's part of my job, so I think I might be over doing it. The entries often last 1.5 hours, and are 1500 words or so. But I do think it is working. Particularly with my neck. It is much improved. The bi-lateral tennis elbow has some way to go I think. So.... I am starting to identify emotions. It's almost as if some emotions act differentially in my body. Still trying to identify the elbow emotion haha; the search continues. And my pain is mobile now. It does float around in my back, but I'm convinced now that I know what it is. I know that it's because I'm an angry, sad, and frustrated person. I does feel better knowing that. It does. As I said in my first entry, I'm an ageing athlete. But I have't been able to train (or exercise really) for months now, due in large part to the pain in my neck and elbows. Well, so far this week, I've cycled twice (a total of 20 minutes, but thats 20 minutes more than I've done for a long while), I've been to the gym - twice; and tomorrow I'm getting in the pool. I doubt that'll I'll ever get back to where I was 18 months ago, but I'm ok with that too. It happens to us all. I was just expecting a slow down, and not a cliff to fall off. I'm sticking with the plan; not just because it is the first thing that has shown a positive result, but also because I actually believe that my emotions are driving this pain. And, as painful as it has been to visit some of the darker and upsetting moments in my life, it's a lot better than having this white pain in my neck. Day 11 tomorrow,
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