Update: pain when I could relax ...

Dear all, I want to share with you me latest insight: when I am very stressed at work I don't have necessarily pelvic pain. My pain depends upon my feeling of being in control and being part of something (a project, people) . Does this makes sense? I have now observed the pattern for some time and what I see is: I feel good if I have task or are together with others. Being alone makes me anxious and I feel lonely. I love my work, so that's not bad that I feel good at work. But the last two months had been nothing but work and this is not good. I know that this is not healthy in the long run. I know that it would be good for me to find a man with whom I could share my life. But the idea of having dates makes my nerve system excited and the pain starts. Shall I do it anyway? I know that the pain subsides if I feel safe in a dating situation. I feel so stupid that I have a pain problem when I could relax ...
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