Just an update on me...last Thursday I took my dogs in for their annual physicals and the vet found what seemed to be cancer in one of them. That was the beginning of a really intense week for us, going to various vet appointments with her and waiting, waiting, waiting for test results. This is definitely the worst I've felt emotionally in a long, long time. Sometimes I feel OK and a little while later sad, anxious, and overwhelmed. Despite all of that I haven't been feeling too bad pain-wise. I do have some pain today but this is how I felt on a "good day" pre-knowing about TMS, and not debilitating. I find myself worrying about things like whether this will trigger more pain, how I will deal with the upcoming weeks/months, etc. I'm balancing feeling the feelings with giving myself breaks from the intensity of all of this. My therapist said taking breaks from the grief is OK and not the same as my typical TMS-repressing-feelings. I'm also trying to practice compassion with myself and not compare my emotional response to all of this to what I think it "should" be. And all of this has made me realize how much time I waste my time worrying so much about things that don't even matter. I'm grateful for all of the work I have done on TMS over the last 6 months otherwise I don't think I'd be able to handle this emotionally of physically.