That should say RECOMMITMENT. Well guys, I am back and am more convinced than ever about TMS. The last number of months have been hell and I have gone on this merry go round of doubts about so many things. One, I have been trying to find a job since January and have been on 7 interviews but with no offers. It’s been very frustrating to say the least. For another, there have been health scares with my husband, and with my parents. Also, my grandson was born a month ago, the day after my son‘s 23rd birthday and the triggers of his induction and emergency C-section, and hoping that didn’t happen with my own daughter, which thankfully it didn’t. Then this last week, my dog got a hold of digestive enzyme chews for him, but he got a hold of the whole 90 count bottle and ate it all. That day, he could barely walk and he was throwing up and had diarrhea, I wasn’t sure what was happening. It turned out, that basically he was drunk, because it had an ingredient Brewers yeast, which had fermented in his stomach. Anyway, when dogs get drunk, they just don’t pass it like humans do. So, we had to hospitalize him for the day and he had to have all kinds of meds to get his system back in check, even though the ingredients by themselves weren’t toxic. That day was horrible, and I had the worst panic attack. The following day, I had the worst migraine. Also, it didn’t help that my husband blamed me for keeping the bottle on the table, even though I didn’t think he could get up and get it. To say I was overloaded, is a big understatement. Anyway, I was getting to the point where the pain started becoming fixed to one location for weeks and even months, when I ignored TMS - big mistake. It got so bad in my stomach that GERD was with me for weeks on end, making me miserable. I had rarely had the shoulder and arm pain, which was weird, but of course fits TMS perfectly. Just the last few weeks, I started wondering if this was TMS, but wanted a confirmation. So, I had my first endoscope a few days ago, because I thought my hiatal hernia was so big that it was causing major issues. I worked myself into a tizzy, because I focused on it constantly. Well, lo and behold the doctor could not FIND one, or at the very least, it was so small that it was undetectable. Wha?? I was told for 22 years that I had one. I would go to my chiropractor on a monthly basis to pull it down. What the hell was he pulling down then? Then, the doctor said I had class a esophagitis, so minor inflammation, which just confused the hell out of me. How can that be, when the burning and tightness is so great. He said, “I think it’s TENSION from stress. DING! The light came back on. Guys, this is 100% confirmation of TMS. The nurse also said, when she was putting in my IV that I had a lot of scar tissue in my arm, most likely due to numerous shots I have had over the years. Another light came on. The only time my scar tissue acts up, or in other words, flares, is when I’m under stress or worried about something. Oh and get this. They did the scope clear down into my bowels and not one piece of scar tissue was found. Of course, they weren’t able to see in the pelvic area, but I do know I have scar tissue there, that’s a fact, however, where I thought I might have some, none. So, now that I have confirmed nothing is wrong, except for scar tissue that I can never completely get rid of, just break up, I can focus on TMS 100%. My husband said that he had never seen me so happy and so healthy, (mind and body) as when I was doing TMS work. My husband, the ever skeptical person, said “Honey, you need to go back to TMS.” I was shocked, but gave me a renewed energy and willpower to get back on the bandwagon. Interestingly, when I started thinking it could be TMS, my pain started to move again! Now, one day its my sinuses, the next, my stomach and so forth. My brain is trying its hardest to keep me distracted. Okay, now that I am back in the game, I need some advice on where to start. I have done a lot, but want to do what seemed to work last time, with maybe a little twist so my brain really gets the message. Does anyone know of a TMS therapist who does Skype sessions? I did one with an intern for about three months, but I need somebody who is very well trained. If I’m going to lick this once and for all, I need a good therapist! TIA.