Yesterday my pain went away for no e hours!! I was dizzy for six of them (symptom imperative), but still! I'm not sure what was different other than I let some minor annoyances be felt and was in a good mood. As I was relaxing in the evening it all came back and even worse than before. I didn't change anything!! In fact, I was extra confident in TMS and showed that the pain can fade in an instant. No reason for it to come back!! Today is just like any other day with pain but it added some new symptoms. I feel like I can't get back to that good mood I had yesterday. Trying to be annoyed to replicate yesterday feels flat and exhausting. It just feels so close when you have some success and justifies the whole pain origin concept... Even makes you feel like you've been doing the right things to feel good again... And then slams you back down.. really feel like you don't have control over this at all.. I'm wondering if I ever will. Knowing about it, calling it out, physical exercise, mindfulness, feel emotions, journaling. The hell does it want from me???