c90danwaiel
Peer Supporter
I'm now on week 2. I think I skipped a day in there somewhere when a big storm was supposed to come through the Pacific Northwest where I live. Luckily, the storm turned out to be much less worse than anticipated and I didn't lose power, although a tornado did hit not too far from where I live.
So anyway, today's question to ponder was whether I'm recognizing the underlying emotions connected to my pain. I think I might be. I'd mentioned on my last post that I realized I was holding a lot of anger in. Today, my journaling addressed my personality trait of being self-conscious and wanting to please others.
I realized with today's journaling how tied in it all is. My anger is tied to my need to please others and my perfectionism, my need to follow my set of values strictly without any compromise, and my inability to do perfect work due to factors beyond my control. I realized how I've been torn in ten different directions the past five or so years of my life, and I let the pressure and frustration all fall on myself.
I still feel like I might be too early to say whether that's connected to my pain or not, but today, my pain has been fairly low, and it did ramp up during journaling, so perhaps it's a sign I'm onto something.
On another note, I've gotten a sharp pain my foot after really not doing much at all to trigger it. Told myself it was TMS and walked a good half-mile yesterday, and I had no pain by the end. It keeps coming back though! So I've got another challenge on my hands it appears, but one I'm confident I can work through.
So anyway, today's question to ponder was whether I'm recognizing the underlying emotions connected to my pain. I think I might be. I'd mentioned on my last post that I realized I was holding a lot of anger in. Today, my journaling addressed my personality trait of being self-conscious and wanting to please others.
I realized with today's journaling how tied in it all is. My anger is tied to my need to please others and my perfectionism, my need to follow my set of values strictly without any compromise, and my inability to do perfect work due to factors beyond my control. I realized how I've been torn in ten different directions the past five or so years of my life, and I let the pressure and frustration all fall on myself.
I still feel like I might be too early to say whether that's connected to my pain or not, but today, my pain has been fairly low, and it did ramp up during journaling, so perhaps it's a sign I'm onto something.
On another note, I've gotten a sharp pain my foot after really not doing much at all to trigger it. Told myself it was TMS and walked a good half-mile yesterday, and I had no pain by the end. It keeps coming back though! So I've got another challenge on my hands it appears, but one I'm confident I can work through.
