Hi all, Im at day 5 now, and didn't do much about the SEP for a couple of days. The reason why i guess is i felt good. I live in Holland, have had backpains for about 6 to 8 yrs now. I am currently a lot more active than i have been. Im biking, walking, and taking soccer practise now (yay!) But after yesterday, my backpain has come back, and now i am feeling fear. There are no therapists in Holland who support TMS. I am currently trying a rehab approach(for the second time). This rehab programme is based on Physical movement and Psychological aspects. But i have already done this once. So I talked to the person of the rehab and told her that i would benefit from psychological help instead of physical help. She is trying to refer me to a psychotherapist. But its keeping quiet. Is there some way i can communcitate with somebody here who can help me? I tried journalling but in my opinion i don't seem to get to the base of my problems. I have spoken with my dad about some things of the past and we had a good talk! But i seem to remember things incorrectly from my past. How do I deal with that? Any help? Enumo.