Shabda-girl
Peer Supporter
My progress so far has more to do with mental rather than physical. Since I am getting ready to move out-of-state in 6 days and have a whole lot of anxiety going on right now, I began this program understanding that there would be a possibility that most of my physical healing would occur once I get through huge move. So by keeping that in mind it has helped me to remain more detached from the pain and expectations. So my goal this far has been to practice remaining detached to the pain, knowing that it is a result of everything that has been going on recently. I do feel that I am doing much better, since I began the program eight days ago, in being able to let the pain be present without putting my attention on it or worrying about it, which has kept the pain from getting worse. The pain, I notice, is absolutely the worst in the morning when I first wake up and am filled with anxiety about facing the day and the huge out-of-state move. But luckily once I get up and get going, and do all the things I would normally do without pain, it seems to dissipate and my day goes fairly well- And I only just now realized that, as I typed it in here. I'm feeling pretty proud to realize that I am functioning normally even though I am doing so much. I do have to be honest and admit that I still feel nervous that once I get past all of this excessive stress, that the pain still will be here. But I guess I just need to focus one day at a time and deal with it when I cross that bridge. I have to remember that I recovered from TMS in the past and that I can do it again. I will also finally have insurance coverage In April and will be able to resume Cognitive Behavioral Therapy,which is very helpful for me and the anxiety, so this is reassuring for me as well.
