Its my first post here, i actually wanted to post on Day 1 but i was a bit shy. I really try to accept it is TMS but it is so hard for me. I have depression and physical pain on my neck and shoulder and my right arm snice a couple of moonths. I went to doctors but my back is fine only with normal degeneration and intervertrebal discs, i am 28 years old and from germany. I have also numbness in my right finger. The thing is, that all of those pains started if i do what i love to do. I cant run anymore because my neck hurts after that so much that i won´t wanna run anymore. My finger and my back hurts so much when i am working whole day on a PC or playing games. Lying down in bed hurts my back when i watch Netflix or a movie in TV. Doing things with my friends is not possible because of lockdown and thats not good either for my situation. I started to read about TMS about a half a year ago and i had hope. I read all Sarnos books and tried to believe and actually stopped taking meds and all of that stuff. I was running again and it felt so good i had no more pain but months later the pain came back. And it came back harder than ever before. I couldnt stand anymore and had to sit etc., because i didnt cure my repressed emotions ? I think i only tried to be happy and not finding the actual problems i have could it that be ? Now i am on Day 10 and i am not the person who cries a lot and now like everyday i am crying and feeling something is not ok inside of me but that pain emotionally is even harder than my physical pain. Its like i just do things for deflection. Sorry for my bad english its not my native language.