It has been 7 days since reading healing back pain. Im now reading The MindBody Prescription. I am on day 3 of SEP. I believe 100% that I have TMS. My past "illnesses and injuries" are what made me realize that its TMS. Just as I had a solution to fix a problem along came another. My issue now is dealing with the pain. I say, 80-90% of my day is lying down. I left my job in May, had a microdiscectomy surgery (pointless) in June. I am at the point I cant even sleep at night. I cant walk for more than 10 steps or sit for more than 1 minute. I can barely even lie down without pain. Im sure this is all conditioning but I cant seem to break them. I try to think emotionally when in pain instead of thinking about the pain, but its hard. No matter how hard I try to fight through the pain, I get to the point where Im bent over and cant even stand up hobbeling around the house in 15 out of 10 pain. Its bad. I have a psychotherapist appointment coming up to try and dig deep into my uncinscious mind. How the heck do I overcome this pain? I try so hard to not fear it and not to succumb to it but I end up just getting so angry. I try everyday to do a little more and more movement but it just destroys me. I feel stuck. Add on: The first thing that comes to mind when I stand up or sit down is, I wonder how long it will be before the pain comes? or if its not a question, pain just pops into my head. I cant get it out of my mind. Its been 3 years with it, it wont happen overnight I realize.