I found TMS too late. I had already had lots of surgery that I didn't need and it left me with severe physical issues. I did the best I could with TMS work to reduce pain and eliminate/stop new TMS based stuff. But...not everything is TMS and not everything that is life ruining is about health. So as my life deteriorated in all ways...as people showed that in large they are ego driven victim blamers...and as "help" was absent or inadequate...I finally decided to opt out. I was not even allowed to apply a permanent solution to the permanent problem of life. So now I am worse off due to negligent medical care in the process of "saving" me...being treated largely like I deserve it because of what I did...and am once again in the damaging loop of Murican healthcare giving me conflicting diagnoses and costing me tons. I am in a terrible living situation with narcissistic family who were a major part of why I did this, I have actual physical health issues being ignored or denied by the system, I seem to fall in every crack the broken/absent social system here has. The only lesson I learned is everything I thought about society, people, and the system was correct as they have proven it even more strongly since this event. My life was destroyed by greed driven surgery. This was denied over and over. Now the system that did this to me is laying people off because they are not getting all that sweet elective surgery money which demonstrates clearly how wrong healthcare as a business is. There is no solution for me...I am just venting...nobody is ever going to treat root causes in my life...no philosophy or religion changes anything...no pill or exercise solves it...but if nothing else I hope someone sees it as a warning to how for-profit healthcare and its motives ruin lives. Don't let them cut on you unless its life or death...and even then you gamble.