My TMS treatment so far I think has been going well overall. Especially the first fews days. I feel like I was able to identify a few moments where I was clearly getting a symptom in response to stressful/painful thoughts. What is particularly hard though is getting through the persistent dizziness. The last couple of days I had a few minor panic attacks. I do think I'm dealing with them better - taking a moment to sit down, center myself, and remind myself that this is TMS, not a life threatening event. They still happen though, and it can be pretty discouraging. When I look back to when my anxiety started, however, everything is MUCH milder. Its so hard to keep that perspective in the moment of pain/panic though. And I do think I uncovered a really key link in my journaling. When I was 14, my family moved to Spain for the year (my Mom got a teacher exchange position). Going at that age was tough, but what I think I had really blocked out was just how painful coming back to the States was. I made really good friends in Spain that I never knew when I'd see again, and no one was all that excited or anticipating my return back home. And in the midst of a fairly deep depression I fell into, several friends broke off their friendships with me, so there was a lot of having to start over and figure out who I was. I think this experience is a major link to my extreme anxiety/panic disorder that I developed when we recently moved across the country to take a new job. The similarities are numerous. So its been really interesting to uncover that, and encouraging. So, overall I'm improving I think, but this may very well be a slow recovery. I'm grateful that I'm not the only one doing it!