I am not fortunate to have found a TMS physician in my area but I am convinced after seeing several doctors, a negative CT scan, blood tests and no sign of disease that TMS is what I am experiencing since doctors started recommending meditation and psychotherapy. I am sitting here reading from Dr. Sarno's book soaking up every bit of information I can find and following the TMS treatment plan for the past 2 weeks or so, I wish I had the access to Dr. Sarno and his group lectures and therapists. I am considering looking for a psychotherapist in my area with experience with psychoanalytic theory and psychosomatic disorders (if I can find one). I am hoping I can at least replicate Dr. Sarno's TMS treatment with the resources I can find near me. Doctors are not much help, they still want to medicate me and refer me to PT. So I will have to do without the element of reassurance from a physician. I believe I've beaten TMS in the past, stumbling upon the answer by distracting myself and wanting so desperately to be functional again. That was low back pain, 5 years ago. Now it's in my head and neck. I'm needing to replace "back pain" from the books with "headache" to apply to me. My brain is very sneaky knowing I would not be able to ignore head pain and that it would make me panic like no place else in my body, despite no previous injury. Today I had a lot of anxiety so, of course, the pain was worse than it's been for a few days and it's getting to me. Little bits of doubt creep in and that makes it worse. But my head CT was clean. There isnt anything wrong. Went to a funeral yesterday. Maybe that's affecting me today. Are others having to accept the TMS diagnosis without a TMS physician? I have no other choice but to do so. Looking forward to better days, any encouragement is appreciated.