Well I understand that its real its excruciating and its just right there and its not going to hurt me. I bend and forward and don't think when moving up and down. I don't care if I am sitting straight or what. I accept all yes this is TMS. I am TMS er. I have all the traits and I am working on how to handle them and accept them in my life. I am still struggling about focus on my present cuz I am a huge worrier and either live in past or thinking about my future. I pray to grant me a mind free of worries my heart free of sadness and a body free of sickness.I want to sink in to not to carry worries of life because this is for God and I also dont want to carry any anxiety for the future because its also in the hands of God. I should just be focusing on my present. Yes it is hard very hard to focus on all this but I have to do this for the sake of my health. I am a kind of person who brings people tensions their burdens their hurdles their problems on my shoulder. I would love to hear any suggestions to overcome my being the goodist out there.