I was diagnosed with TMS (by a MD) about 2 years ago . I was getting better, but there were some nagging symptoms that just wouldn't let up. TMS set many limits on my life and maybe I wasn't embracing the diagnosis 100 %. So like an idiot I let a surgeon do a fusion on the area that they all thought it was coming from. It's been 11 weeks post op and you guessed it I am no better off than before the surgery and in fact somewhat worse. The pain is jumping around almost like it is making fun of me. I realize now for the very 1st time that it is truly TMS. Why would my right arm feel weak while I am trying to type this message to you all.
I believe I had TMS years ago and didn't know what it was. I would get a symptom ...go to a doctor and all the tests would come up empty, or negative. From an early age I had terrible separation anxiety from my mom (she was hospitalized for 4 months) when I was 5 and that truly affected me. Moving on I would get nose bleeds, bad seasonal allergies, acne and there skin issues, anxiety about what others thought about me, terrible buttock pain, low back pain, burning sensations in extremities, terrible foot nerve pain, cardiac palpatations, tendonitis in the chest wall, urinary frequency with pain (doctors thought were kidney stones) had a cysto and they found nothing. Up to that point I knew it was some strange disorder until I was diagnosed with TMS. So here I am horrible low back, buttocks and foot pain all over again.
Finally last night I had a dream where I was in a terrible rage and it was at my mom who died 2003 and I said to her "how could you let this happen ?" In my mind i am actually angry at her for something I can't explain here. I finally feel like my subconscious is letting me feel the repressed emotions, or at least let me have a taste of my repressed anger that I am feeling. Do I feel better ..maybe a little but I am working on trying to ignore the physical pain and deal with my repressed anger. My question people is this ...am I on the right track to figuring this out ? I need some help here...I really do.
I believe I had TMS years ago and didn't know what it was. I would get a symptom ...go to a doctor and all the tests would come up empty, or negative. From an early age I had terrible separation anxiety from my mom (she was hospitalized for 4 months) when I was 5 and that truly affected me. Moving on I would get nose bleeds, bad seasonal allergies, acne and there skin issues, anxiety about what others thought about me, terrible buttock pain, low back pain, burning sensations in extremities, terrible foot nerve pain, cardiac palpatations, tendonitis in the chest wall, urinary frequency with pain (doctors thought were kidney stones) had a cysto and they found nothing. Up to that point I knew it was some strange disorder until I was diagnosed with TMS. So here I am horrible low back, buttocks and foot pain all over again.
Finally last night I had a dream where I was in a terrible rage and it was at my mom who died 2003 and I said to her "how could you let this happen ?" In my mind i am actually angry at her for something I can't explain here. I finally feel like my subconscious is letting me feel the repressed emotions, or at least let me have a taste of my repressed anger that I am feeling. Do I feel better ..maybe a little but I am working on trying to ignore the physical pain and deal with my repressed anger. My question people is this ...am I on the right track to figuring this out ? I need some help here...I really do.
