So I discovered TMS in March, and initially posted quite a lot. However, I got caught up in journalling, and didn't have as many questions, so I went quiet for a while. I just wanted to do a quick update about my TMJ pain which has plagued me for 15 years. And I mean constant pain - the only respite I ever had was when given morphine (best two hours of my life, wish I hadn't fallen asleep!). Anyway, since discovering TMS and everyone here, I have had a few - and only a few, but still - minutes with ZERO pain. This has completely and utterly convinced me it is TMS. I am so happy! I have found the answer! However, I find myself having this weird crisis. My pain is considerably less than it was, and already I'm thinking, did it used to be so bad? It's like I don't know who I'll be without the pain to obsess over. And I don't think it's a case of secondary gain, because actually I never talk about my TMJ - my husband knows I have it, and my parents probably remember me going to the dentist and doctor over it (I actually couldn't open my mouth for a few months as a teenager), but I never tell anyone else / talk about it. Did anyone else experience this? It's like I'm hanging on to the pain in some way. I know now I can get rid of it... and I once told a doctor I would give him my house if he could take the pain away... and yet, now that is within reach, I feel somehow attached to the pain? Thanks so much to everyone who gave me support early on in my TMS journey, I wouldn't have got to even this stage without you.