Dexy
Peer Supporter
I'm stuck in an old, self-abusing neuropathway (focusing on my TMS symptoms, feeling angry at them, feeling lots of physical pains), and I am wondering what your tips are for creating new neuropathways. How do you keep creating new neuropathways when your symptoms are so strong?
When I am really "TMSing", I have constant symptoms and they do everything I *know* they "shouldn't"--frustrate and enrage me, preoccupy my 100%, dictate my mood, scare me, and have me wondering if I will ever be happy and unoccupied by these G#$% #$#$##$@ pains! (When I am heavily TMS'ing, I can get really, really angry inside).
I no longer believe my symptoms to have a physical cause, which is great, but I still get just as frustrated and enraged (at times) that my symptoms won't abate NO MATTER WHAT I DO! AGHHHHHHHHH!!!!
I am currently experiencing a really frustrating TMS morning. I went for a run and my body was going CRAZY. I know that I shouldn't get angry and I often have success with not getting angry and shifting how I react to symptoms which helps everything: I feel empowered, my pain usually lessens (paradoxically because I don't care anymore), my mood lifts, I'm energized, and I feel like I am on the right path in terms of TMS healing.
On other days (today being one), I feel like I'll never get this, that even when I've been on the right track, it never lasts long, why am I still battling this day in and day out, when will I ever figure it out, when will I ever be happy, etc etc etc. I get really down and angry and I feel tremendously disempowered. However, I know this is just my repetitive, negative thinking taking the reigns.
Even when I know this, at times it's so overpowering, I can't change the thoughts or accompanying emotions. I DO, however, now trust that this is just a mood/phase/bad morning that will pass. It doesn't mean it doesn't frustrate the heck out of me. I remind myself that these are just neuropathways in my brain and I need to keep creating new ones, but I still seem to not be able to do this, or not for long?!!
Just looking for some forum words of wisdom, since I am always so inspired and helped when I post on here.
When I am really "TMSing", I have constant symptoms and they do everything I *know* they "shouldn't"--frustrate and enrage me, preoccupy my 100%, dictate my mood, scare me, and have me wondering if I will ever be happy and unoccupied by these G#$% #$#$##$@ pains! (When I am heavily TMS'ing, I can get really, really angry inside).
I no longer believe my symptoms to have a physical cause, which is great, but I still get just as frustrated and enraged (at times) that my symptoms won't abate NO MATTER WHAT I DO! AGHHHHHHHHH!!!!
I am currently experiencing a really frustrating TMS morning. I went for a run and my body was going CRAZY. I know that I shouldn't get angry and I often have success with not getting angry and shifting how I react to symptoms which helps everything: I feel empowered, my pain usually lessens (paradoxically because I don't care anymore), my mood lifts, I'm energized, and I feel like I am on the right path in terms of TMS healing.
On other days (today being one), I feel like I'll never get this, that even when I've been on the right track, it never lasts long, why am I still battling this day in and day out, when will I ever figure it out, when will I ever be happy, etc etc etc. I get really down and angry and I feel tremendously disempowered. However, I know this is just my repetitive, negative thinking taking the reigns.
Even when I know this, at times it's so overpowering, I can't change the thoughts or accompanying emotions. I DO, however, now trust that this is just a mood/phase/bad morning that will pass. It doesn't mean it doesn't frustrate the heck out of me. I remind myself that these are just neuropathways in my brain and I need to keep creating new ones, but I still seem to not be able to do this, or not for long?!!
Just looking for some forum words of wisdom, since I am always so inspired and helped when I post on here.