Tinnitus

It is so bad tonight. I haven’t been able to sleep for days so I finally took something but it was still there when I woke up. I’ve tried everything and now I suspect a medication I have to take. I have been doing better w nerve pain using the cureable app and working w a TMS specialist here but it doesn’t really help me right now when the t is this bad. I tried going off the medication and the t got better but I got worse and had to go back on. I am hoping tomorrow will be better. I know there’s no cure but I am confused bc my dr told me to ignore it but then I’ve read an article about how you’re supposed to lean in to it. Anyone have any advice on how to deal w it? I am going to see if there’s another med but I think this one has the lowest side effect profile and there’s no guarantee if I switch it will go away anyway. Any advice is appreciated. Been doing : meditation, exercise, masking, yoga, not in the same day lol. I can ignore it usually but wow this is Manchurian Candidate level!!!!

 

Hello Lavoris, i dont know if i could give you advice or share about my story, since i know my tinnitus isnt that bad. Maybe i will tell the story on how i got it. I just cleaned my ears too harsh. I didnt realize it then it happened when i was watching movie on laptop. Little ringing happened on my right ear in which i picked too harsh on my right ear. I dont worry about it, i ignore it and treat it as usual ringing we all have from time to time that will be gone in a few minutes. But after seconds, i started to worry and suddenly ask myself, what if the ringing doesnt go away, and right at that time the ringing happened on my left ear instantly. Note that i was in such a stressful times at that moment, im broke after my first break up. Im so bothered by both of my ears ringing, and started googling about it. I was scared, worry so much. I went to the doctors, and he said the damage is minor and told me to stop cleaning my ears. I asked him, what if the ringing stays after the little wound in my ear is healed. He said not to worry and it will be gone, he also said he has pretty loud tinnitus that is caused by aging age.

Fast forward, the little wound in my ears is healed but the tinnitus stays. I was suicidal, dont know what to do and really mad. Everyday is a torture, i have read that people can get used to it, called habituation, but i asked myself, how could i accept this annoying ringing that scared me every second of the day? At least, by practicing acceptance on my tinnitus, i started to be able to ignore and accept it in some days, but i remember that my tinnitus will get worse everytime im in stressful times, everytime i met and see my exes, i get little anxiety and panic, then the tinnitus becomes so loud. It was also at that time that i develop TMS and found the forum and knowledge about it. Nevertheless, it was such an unpleasant experience.

After a few weeks, i started to lose my fear on tinnitus, currently i still have it but it doesnt bother me. I even remember the times when i feel like my tinnitus is gone, even when i remind myself that i have tinnitus, it just looks like i dont care anymore, maybe the ringing is still there, but it feels like my tinnitus is gone. I dont know how to explain it, but there it is, by using acceptance and losing my fear.

Lastly, i dont know if my story could help you, i just want to share the story with you, im also aware that my tinnitus isnt so bad like many other people who have it. Hang in there Lavoris,i wish you could get through this, stay strong