I was all set t have a fantastic Thanksgiving and I rose early to do TMS exercises and meditate. I ordered food this year to reduce stress and was feeling great even singing in the shower! Then when I reached to take the turkey out of the oven I tweaked something in my upper back and my hands started w pins and needles (I have no nerve damage but it is all over my body). I was so freaked out! At dinner my tinnitus peaked and I had nerve pain all over nearly ruining my dinner party. I let it all happen and enjoyed myself despite it all but cried when everyone left. I’ve been having awful insomnia and panic attacks (unusual for me even thou I am going off of benzos!). I was so mad for taking the heavy pot out of the oven but I did it w confidence only later noticing the kickback. Just now I fell asleep in the car w my legs crossed and my whole leg is bothering me! I feel sick to my stomach that this won’t go away. It is the anniversary of my friends death but frankly w all the trauma in my life it could be a new thing every day as the source for the pain! My ears are off the hook as I write this and I am otherwise relaxed, or was. All these things are so disheartening. The symptoms started out of the blue after straining my back and although I know they’re aggravated by stress but they cause stress! How does anyone else handle raging tinnitus or symptoms that seem to have a direct cause of a physical movement????!!! I think I could handle back pain but nerves are the worst and tinnitus is a close second. It’s hard to rub cream all over my body or jump in a bathtub and ringing is hard to turn down. I wear headphones w masking noise and I tell myself to keep moving but this is so screamingly unfair. I miss just BEiNG without having to work through these things. I miss spontaneous joy. Sitting back and relaxing and having a conversation w friends without hiding the pain and the noise from others during times which would and have been joyful in the past.