Aimee88
Well known member
It's time to declare a success! After 30+ years of all sorts of pain and treatments and opinions from doctors and chiropractors and osteopaths (UK version), I am free of chronic pain. I am also no longer afraid of pain. And I'm not afraid to do things. That's how I decided today was the day to come back here and write this.
I'm on holiday. I came on this holiday specifically to walk to some amazing viewpoints that I have been seeing photos of for a long time. Three years ago I was in the same area and went on a walk I wouldn't have believed I could have done. At that time, I had an idea of the mind-body thing, from a spiritual perspective, and on that walk, as I was about to freak out (I can't do this!!) I got the message, 'don't test your back, just use it.' And so I did, and hiked through a beautiful little gorge, up hill and down, pausing when I needed to. But it got worse before it got better. Last year I was in such pain that I even went to a medical doctor (haha) and well, you can read about that in my story, if you like. The blessing was my beautiful osteopath who after my tests and xrays for rheumatoid arthritis, cautiously suggested I read Divided Mind, and I did. It's been about a year since I've seen her, and yesterday and today I walked where I wanted to, with confidence. My back and legs feel great. There is some pain in my feet, but I know it's nothing structural. I think it's guilt. Here I am out here doing what I want, by myself, taking time off work to just go off and have fun. Ha! Who does that?? Yes, I think I have been laughing out loud and grinning ear-to-ear nearly the whole time. People must think I'm off my rocker. That's ok. I probably am.
Yes, I nearly didn't write this today, because of the pain in my feet, but I thought, no, the success is that I'm no longer afraid. The success is that I understand. The success is that I trust my body again. The success is that I'm not in panic-mode, but rather, I'm actually thinking what to do next! Where to go. How far. I even did yoga last night, as well.
Funny thing, when I got here, I realised I didn't even think about bringing any pain killers with me! And today, when I picked up a few things I forgot at a local shop, nope, didn't get any. I don't need them. I'm ok. I'm not that fragile.
I'm so grateful for this forum, for the books, for the knowledge and f or the courage. We are not that fragile. Next is to write a thank you care to that beautiful osteopath. She had the courage to give me information that cost her business, and gave me back my body.
A view from yesterday....
I'm on holiday. I came on this holiday specifically to walk to some amazing viewpoints that I have been seeing photos of for a long time. Three years ago I was in the same area and went on a walk I wouldn't have believed I could have done. At that time, I had an idea of the mind-body thing, from a spiritual perspective, and on that walk, as I was about to freak out (I can't do this!!) I got the message, 'don't test your back, just use it.' And so I did, and hiked through a beautiful little gorge, up hill and down, pausing when I needed to. But it got worse before it got better. Last year I was in such pain that I even went to a medical doctor (haha) and well, you can read about that in my story, if you like. The blessing was my beautiful osteopath who after my tests and xrays for rheumatoid arthritis, cautiously suggested I read Divided Mind, and I did. It's been about a year since I've seen her, and yesterday and today I walked where I wanted to, with confidence. My back and legs feel great. There is some pain in my feet, but I know it's nothing structural. I think it's guilt. Here I am out here doing what I want, by myself, taking time off work to just go off and have fun. Ha! Who does that?? Yes, I think I have been laughing out loud and grinning ear-to-ear nearly the whole time. People must think I'm off my rocker. That's ok. I probably am.
Yes, I nearly didn't write this today, because of the pain in my feet, but I thought, no, the success is that I'm no longer afraid. The success is that I understand. The success is that I trust my body again. The success is that I'm not in panic-mode, but rather, I'm actually thinking what to do next! Where to go. How far. I even did yoga last night, as well.
Funny thing, when I got here, I realised I didn't even think about bringing any pain killers with me! And today, when I picked up a few things I forgot at a local shop, nope, didn't get any. I don't need them. I'm ok. I'm not that fragile.
I'm so grateful for this forum, for the books, for the knowledge and f or the courage. We are not that fragile. Next is to write a thank you care to that beautiful osteopath. She had the courage to give me information that cost her business, and gave me back my body.
A view from yesterday....
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