Hi Everyone, I am 43 years old, located in Israel. This is a very sensitive "area" I am touching here so it's really hard for me to talk about this in public. about 13 years ago, I had a terrible food poisoning, 3 days of constantly running to the bathroom and back, no relief whatsoever. when it was finally over, that "i need to go" feeling just stayed with me. I thought it will be over in a few days since the whole area was very sensitive, but it didn't. After doing a colonoscopy, blood tests, stool tests, ct, xray etc. there was nothing wrong with me, the GI i was treated at said "there is nothing to be done learn to live with it", something that was hard to hear for a 30 year old guy. i went to a psych, that gave me seroxat (ssri) + xanax, and behold, after about a month, symptoms reduced by 90%. so i continued with my life like that for 10 years. 3 years ago, it came back, with a vengeance! i've decided that no matter what i will find what this thing is and get thru it. 3 years past since then, i reduced tension in my life, made numerous tests, tried about 30 (!) anti depressant and other psychiatric drugs but nothing really helped. I became more and more concered about this condition telling myself i cannot continue my life like that, tried psychotherapy with no improvment, it's something you can't ignore. the need to "go". I have tried to continue my life in the first year, but it didn't work, I have ended 3 beautiful relationships, downsized my work hours, I am most of the day at home, in bed, trying to figure out what is wrong with me. i don't go out, i rarely do anything other than going and doing what i MUST do, and now trying a physiotherapist of the pelvic muscle sessions, I'm a mess. don't know what to do next, and can't accept the idea that i will continue feeling this darn feeling all of my life. what do you think i should do now? Oh.. btw, what i have is called the levator ani syndrome, non-relaxing puborectalis syndrome and may be called by other names. i have searched high and low for info on the net, but nothing helped.