I have learned some things much more clearly since I started this programme. I notice that I have been put down quite a lot in my relationship, but much more than this is the revelation of how I finish the job by criticising myself in further ways. Self criticism and inner conflict about the ramifications with this or that person when I make a decision are huge. So I'm standing up for myself much more and feel better when I do. And I'm catching myself quite often when I self criticise and making myself see that I'm more competent and intelligent than I usually give myself credit for. As for issues with my very elderly father, I have spent my whole life loving him, excusing him, going along with his passive aggression, feeling guilty, trying to smooth things for him, seeing things from his viewpoint, trying to make him happy, forgive, care for, be a fantastic caring daughter ... So it seems absolutely right and indeed essential to really listen at last to that inner rage. And this is making me feel more balanced in a surprising number of ways. It's knowledge of the rage that nurtures me. He probably won't notice much difference in my behaviour. But I, precious me, feel more authentic and whole. So thank u programme. Not bad for 33 days. And continuing ... !