Btw: I take amitriptyline again, yes, it’s a crutch. It helps with the pain and I sleep better. Before I was awake at 5 in the morning, feeling anxiety especially in my bladder. That’s an awful feeling. I need to address these issues. One is that my workplace will fire people in the end of January. I don’t think they will fire me, but it is not unthinkable. Again, my problem with certainty. I never thought that this is an issue of mine. I need to give up this attempt to be in control. I know where it comes from. Puha...so many things to address!