I am on day 39 of the SED. My life is just rolling along. I started following the TMS protocol at the beginning of March. I had a sore back for 2 years. That is much better, almost all better. I have been going to the pool and swimming 3 days a week. I started out just walking and built my way up. I now swim about 20 minutes each time. And yes, physical activity does get easier as you go along, with the help of positive self talk and following the journaling in the SEP. I am still working on some nervous problems I have, which probably started the whole sore back ball rolling. I am having a party at my house tomorrow, with 35 people. As I clean my house I try not to focus on the house being perfectly clean, but that my house is warm and inviting. I believe I am coming around a bend. I had a dream last night that reflected that feeling of leaving one place and going onto another, so I wrote a poem about the dream and here it is: The Valley of the Dead There is dark and doom Death and rot loom We hang on as long as we can White knuckles I say it is time We must go Come, lets go But no, no Just me, no friends, no family A few other fringe dwellers We take off, we fly The valley crumbles The valley quakes The valley is a valley no more Filled with the dust of cremated lives Now just lazy rolling hills that give me the chills As I remember the past The breath of days gone by On my way to the future But for now I fly.