I just wrote my 18 year old son an unsent letter. I had no idea how much pain and sadness this would release in me. He has been an extremely difficult child since he was 3. Raising him has taxed me in mor ways than I have acknowledged. I have not been alone. Though divorced, his Dad has been a good support system. But this kid has been difficult for us both. Befuddled us both. The guilt I feel over my tumultous parenting of my son runs deep into my soul. I am getting counseling over this and other issues, but realize I may need to bring him in for counseling to make amends. My back problems started when he became 14 and I am now seeing the correlation. How does deal with profound guilt?