eskimoeskimo
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1. The week that I got back from a solo trip to Asia
2. In the middle of seeing my parents for the first time in 2 years
3. After hopping a freight train (and getting caught)
4. The day after interviewing for a big job (and it turns out mistakenly thinking I got the job)
5. The day I sold both some software that I designed and a painting
The obvious theme here is psychology. And I can specifically remember it being terrible just before all 5 of these spontaneous relief moments. In particular, I was feeling especially distraught, frustrated, and suicidal right until the very moment that number 2 occurred. There are other times when the pain is less, usually because I'm distracted or exercising or something, but these five were truly spontaneous and complete... the whole shebang just melted away.
2. In the middle of seeing my parents for the first time in 2 years
3. After hopping a freight train (and getting caught)
4. The day after interviewing for a big job (and it turns out mistakenly thinking I got the job)
5. The day I sold both some software that I designed and a painting
The obvious theme here is psychology. And I can specifically remember it being terrible just before all 5 of these spontaneous relief moments. In particular, I was feeling especially distraught, frustrated, and suicidal right until the very moment that number 2 occurred. There are other times when the pain is less, usually because I'm distracted or exercising or something, but these five were truly spontaneous and complete... the whole shebang just melted away.
