I read the questions to ponder, but I don't think I can ask them a hundred time everyday. A few times would be enough I feel. I already feel digging too much, investigating my feelings for at least half an hour in order to keep up with the program. But I understood the concept, it may be helpful. I wrote the dialogue letter to my brain. I read that people do that in the foruma and wanted to give a try without believing that I could write. The first few sentences took time, after that it just poured. To be honest I felt really insane, but it was worth it. It felt really good to say just leave me be and send me my oxygen. I hope it works. I found both the educational reading and journaling very useful. I realize many things about myself that I wasn't aware of when I started to write. Things I could never say out loud because that would hurt people or show my feelings of inferiority clear to the outer world. Also I am grateful to people writing to the forum about their daily experiences, because it's nice to feel that you are not alone and it guides me when I am stuck. Thanks to everyone.