When looking at my journaling entries, I can clearly see the presence of "not being accepted" that caused anger and sadness in my past, and still lingers on. Another is the need to make everything perfect so I don't get told off, because of the way I was brought up. My pain has reduced, last week was a proof that I'm so much more of control and that SEP is helping me, even though I had a relapse, I managed to react to it differently and that made me so proud. That's why I took yesterday and today "off". I felt the need to stop and breathe. The symptoms were gone completely yesterday. A little bit of back pain and pressure in my head today. Another change was the "keep the inner child happy" by promising and doing fun things: getting an ice cream, watch comedies, zumba classes and similar.