When I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia in 2005, I was sent to a 5-hour induction into the Pain Clinic at Oregon Health Sciences University, one of the few places in the country then that had a clinic specializing in FMS. During the day I was told that there was no cure, that my symptoms would gradually worse until I had to go on disability, that I would need to be put on a 'cocktail' of prescriptions meds - pain meds, antidepressants, sleeping pills, etc. I was shown people in wheelchairs, on 24-hour morphone patches. The day was so traumatizing that I left that evening saying 'I reject your reality and substitute my own." It's funny how at some level having a diagnosis like that can almost give you a feeling of relief, like it's OK to just give up and take the pills and embrace your role as a chronic invalid. There are many in my local support group who have done just that. They get very angry if you try to suggest that the pain might have an emotional component. I can see why - it puts the responsibility back on our shoulders to find a way through this struggle as well as putting the blame back on us for allowing this to happen. I desperately need to believe that the problem in emotional. I can't fix this problem with pills, God knows I've tried - heheh. But to say that the problem is emotional makes me feel like I might possibly be able to do something about it then. Like I still have a little control. Not that I've ever been able to control my emotions much. The harder I repress them the stronger they get, or so it seems. I do hope this program can help me find a way to process them that is not so destructive.