Today's reading came from a therapist who recounted a story told to him by his client, who was dealing with depression and OCD. The client described a particular type of monkey trap used in a foreign country. The trap was described as a skinny tube leading to a larger area. The area is filled with bait, particularly a big piece of food. The monkey's hand fits through the skinny tube, but the monkey must make a fist to hold onto the food as it attempts to pull its hand back out of the trap. The monkey's fist is too big, and therefore can't hold onto the food AND gets its hand out of the tube. Apparently, the monkeys are so stubborn that they refuse to let go of the food, and therefore are "trapped". The client felt like that monkey. She was convinced that there was something she couldn't let go of in order to get better. It was the final obstacle left in her recovery. There is a parallel with TMS. Our rational conscious mind recognizes that it's preferable to feel our emotions than feel physical pain, but our unconscious mind is resolved to keep certain emotions in the dark . For many of us, this logical understanding doesn't simply make us better. We have to learn to let go of the unrepressed emotions, to let them into our conscious mind. That's where this SEP comes in, as it challenges us to dig deep and uncover. One of the things I'm struggling with is loving myself. I'm self-critical, and just flat out don't like my life right now. There are so many things I wish to change. I've come to realize that these emotions are fueling my pain. I need to go easier on myself sometimes. I need a healthy balance between current contentment and clear goals for the future. What are things that you are holding onto that get in the way of recovery?