Only by observing myself when complaining about people at work could I see how annoyed and angry I get when other people just don't get the simplest basic concepts. And how frustrated I get when I have to explain things, I feel like I'm way ahead and bored because of waiting for the rest to catch up. So when they don't share my views my inner child get infuriated. Tantrum after tantrum. I used to think that this was wrong to feel, ashamed that I feel I'm better than others, how could I? A conflict of low self-esteem and trying to accomplish my potential while working with people who didn't care as much as I did. They just had different views. On a different note, my head is exploding with a headache today.Yesterday evening I found myself really nervous and pushed to find a better organisation system of my wardrobe. There were some clothes that I don't wear because I gained some weight, and I blamed myself for letting that happen. Not looking good enough, idiotic I know. Also I have been trying to cut on unhealthy food. So it all ended up in a tension headache. And tears because I allowed myself to get tense again, now I feel I'm doing it all wrong and going back to the original, very scary state of a few months ago.