thanks all for your helpful feedback. beach girl i definitely know what you're talking about. i actually try to shy away from reading too much (kind of hard when you're trying to learn about TMS) since my symptoms are all in my eyes and it hurts when I read. I've found that in order for the pain to go away significantly the distraction has to be very great otherwise I'll still have the pain in the back of my mind like "the pain is still here, i need to do something about it after im done doing this" that kind of deal.
Lori im actually reading one of the books you recommended on your page "your body believes every word you say". so far has been a great read. i dont know if you guys listened in on the june 9th alan gordon webinar but there was one thing that really caught my attention that he said. when you stop caring about the pain and obsessing about it, it eventually goes away. this pretty much summed up everything i've been reading lately that the obsession is the real problem not the pain itself. the pain is the means to an end, or the distraction, but its being obsessed with the pain that keeps it around.
so in essence when i was playing this game my obsession switched from constantly thinking about "this hurts, how am i going to get rid of this, im not doing enough TMS work lately, etc." to "i'm having fun playing this game". it wasn't until i stopped playing when I hit maximum level that the pain started coming back in full force and has been that way for the past week and a half.
according to Dr. Fehmi, distraction works because your mind can only focus on a finite number of things so if you fill your attention with other things besides your pain you won't feel it nearly as much (or maybe not at all). so attention plays a HUGE role in how you perceive pain. i know this because i've had days i worked 4 hours and had more pain than days i've worked 8 hours on the computer. from a physical standpoint, this makes no sense but from a psychological one it does.
quasar i know exactly what you're talking about with the chair you bought for watching TV. in your mind you create a correlation between when you got pain and what you were doing at that time and then you relate them. now whenever you sit in the chair subconsciously or maybe consciously as well you think about the pain and get it. this has happened to me with many different things over the last couple years as well. at first i only got pain when using the computer, then it also happened when reading books, then watching TV, then doing any nearpoint activity. the more and more i went to doctors and when they said avoid nearpoint activities i started associating anything i did up close as a possible pain generator.
since i have an obsessive personality because of OCD, this pain syndrome has been the hardest thing for me ever to break. i've broken a pain cycle in the past by just not concentrating on it anymore. for some reason i stopped caring about it and it went away. this was after 3-4 months of dealing with the pain, doing all the treatments for it, etc. i think something has to come along in my life that consumes my attention more than the pain does to break this cycle of obsession. the reason i think this is because before i had eye pain i had moderate-severe foot pain (still do when i walk for a while). when i quit my standing job i thought the pain was gone forever but then i started a new job and got pain in my eyes. it was like my mind had to start obsessing about something else and it shifted to the eyes because i got eyestrain the first day i started work there. most people would call this the symptom imperative, but i think there is such a strong link between OCD/anxiety/TMS that I need to explore especially the obsessive part. Im thinking about switching medications too because paxil is doing nothing for the obsessiveness i have about this pain. thats why i think distraction works though is because it consumes your attention.