I have never posted here but have browsed the site for several years. I became familiar with TMS about 3 years ago after suffering some terrible back spasms. After the back spasms were healed by TMS, anxiety set in, which I now also know is TMS anyhow, about 4 days ago I suffered a setback in which my back tensed up and I for some reason couldn't make myself believe it was TMS. I have had a horrible 3 days and nights. Honestly the pain wasn't terrible but my fear of "what if this happens again" or "Maybe it's not TMS" have been pervasive in my mind. I have been having some stressful times at home, and am a consummate perfectionist and worrier so that doesn't help. To top it off, I had a vacation with my girlfriends planned in which I was flying alone with my two toddlers to drop them at my parents house before heading to the beach. I hate flying. Like really hate flying. And then I was terrified that I would have both kids in the airport and suffer a spasm and be incapacitated. So I was a mess today before leaving for the trip. While I was getting ready I somehow stumbled upon an audio discussion between "Herbie" and several others on the topic of Steve O's book. I started listening and then a man called in who sounded like he had the same issues I had with fear and perfectionism and for some reason I started crying and my pain literally started melting away. I am 95% better than I was this morning. I am well versed in TMS and know that's what was wrong with my back but was having lots of doubts, fear and "what ifs" this week. Hearing the reassurance that was given to this sweet man was such a comfort and encouragement to me! I got to the airport and wasn't afraid. I also carried a 35lb baby boy and held a toddlers hand as well as carting two large tote bags through the airport with ease. As I was standing in line for security with probably literally 75lbs of baby and bags hanging from me, I realized that if something were truly wrong with my back I wouldn't be able to do that. I can't tell you what listening to your encouragement and discussion did for me today and I am indebted to you. Do you know how the man who called in is doing? I want to say he may have said he was from Dallas, which is where I am from to. I would love to get in touch w him as a "support buddy" if that's ever done? Thank you again for sharing your knowledge!